mind !
this is the 2nd leave in this week i have taken from office. reason? nothing big? . routine to office is pretty bad now. my sister confronted me today , she told ‘de , you are running away from your responsibilities! please dont’…
yea I am running away. something in the family happened a few days back and since then my mind is just not in the right place. When i am in office, it doesnt want to work. It keeps on thinking something or the other. I get restless sitting at my seat. I keep writing on my notepad, ‘what is happening to you, start working geet else they will throw you out !!’.
if I am at home then i try to kill time by playing farmville or something else. i get bad dreams in the night.Obviously, if all day i keep thinking than night wont be better.
earlier my dreams used to be like i am beating up the thugs or chasing a thief or beating black and blue ! and now? rapes,death,people chasing me !!!!
the only good thing i do is Yoga ,which I am doing everyday. One of the yoga asanas let you get all the fear,frustration,sadness out of your body… people were crying loud in this and stubborn me didnt feel anything!!! heights of being stubborn geet !!!!
at this point, i am not fulfilling anyone’s dream!
just a while ago , me and sis were talking about companionship! sometimes when you are with someone, the time just flies …. you become joker for each other, you become actor/actress for each other, you are just be yourself and do all kind of crazy things and talk crazy …at that time you really dont need anything else… the world seems nowhere in sight. Even in the crowd you both just dont see anyone around. you can understand whats going on just by looking into the eyes, you give space when wanted , you want to help and be there no matter what, with her/him. you feel better when she/he shares not just the happiness but the sadness,problems,tensions.. because you know you are always like this,will be there for him and not going to change ever !!!
I think all my life , i will never mature. Inside I will still be a 22 yr old kiddo girl who gets excited on small things and jumps like crazy when she see puppies and cubs! but some situations, I just cant handle. I will never grow old from heart , just one thing i know for SURE, atleast from last 8 years i am still the same even after staying in another continent for a good time.
Just random thoughts.
(pic clicked by a tour buddy)





