wandering

mind !

this is the 2nd leave in this week i have taken from office. reason? nothing big? . routine to office is pretty bad now. my sister confronted me today , she told ‘de , you are running away from your responsibilities! please dont’…

yea I am running away. something in the family happened a few days back and since then my mind is just not in the right place. When i am in office, it doesnt want to work.  It keeps on thinking something or the other. I get restless sitting at my seat. I keep writing on my notepad, ‘what is happening to you, start working geet else they will throw you out !!’.

if I am at home then i try to kill time by playing farmville or something else. i get bad dreams in the night.Obviously, if all day i keep thinking than night wont be better.

earlier my dreams used to be like i am beating up the thugs or chasing a thief or beating black and blue ! and now? rapes,death,people chasing me !!!!

the only good thing i do is Yoga ,which I am doing everyday. One of the yoga asanas let you get all the fear,frustration,sadness out of your body… people were crying loud in this and stubborn me didnt feel anything!!! heights of  being stubborn  geet !!!!

at this point, i am not fulfilling anyone’s dream!

just a while ago , me and sis were talking about companionship! sometimes when you are with someone, the time just flies …. you become joker for each other, you become actor/actress for each other, you are just be yourself and do all kind of crazy things and talk crazy …at that time you really dont need anything else… the world seems nowhere in sight. Even in the crowd you both just dont see anyone around. you can understand whats going on just by looking into the eyes, you give space when wanted , you want to help and be there no matter what, with her/him. you feel better when she/he shares not just the happiness but the sadness,problems,tensions.. because you know you are always like this,will be there for him and not going to change ever !!!

I think all my life , i will never mature. Inside I will still be a 22 yr old kiddo girl who gets excited on small things and jumps like crazy when she see puppies and cubs! but some situations, I just cant handle. I will never grow old from heart , just one thing i know for SURE, atleast from last 8 years i am still the same even after staying in another continent for a good time.

Just random thoughts.

(pic clicked by a tour buddy)

any hope?

was having an intellectual talk with some of my friends on what next??  what next after the bilateral talks,naxal attacks,obama’s visit,terrorist camps ….

any visible tides of change? will people start living their life without disturbing peace or  atleast physically hurting others?

NO, Tides of change are NOWHERE in sight !

I feel , now Mother Nature will take the control. TIME will come when She will create havoc on Earth using Air,Water,light and earth to take away billions of people from their lives.

When only half the population be left, no visible continents due to quakes and water submerges and people would not be able to blame the religion ,groups ; THATS WHEN they will realize the life and will help out each other!

so, What i have decided is:

1. if I die in this natural calamity , no issues!

2. If i dont, they I will put my effort till my last breath to spread the message of ‘Starting life again’ without weapons !!!

otherwise right now I dont see any hope. Even when congress is in centre with Majority and very less alliance, STILL I see no improvement in standing up after 26/11 attacks, control naxal movements in around 11 states right now,china’s encroachment , 900 crore coal mine scams … and  aam aadmi chose this govt right? but aam aadmi cant do anything else after this !!!!!

 

 

वहाँ कौन है तेरा, मुसाफ़िर, जाएगा कहाँ

I was listening to 102.4 fm ,akashvani . Fauji Bhayiyon ka Karyakram “jaimaala”… aur ek fauji bhai ne iss gaane ki farmaaish ki. Acchi baat humen ye lagti hai iss karyakram ki ,ki ye gaane ke naame ke saath, geetkaar,sangeetkaar aur gaane ko kisne likha hai,sab kuch batate hain!

geet-kaar aur sangeet-kaar hain : S D burman ji

Iss gaane ko likha hai : Shailendra ji ne

One of my fav songs. A few of these songs of last decades can never be replaced by today’s compositions! never!

The song starts with Dev ji’s a.k.a Raju dialog ….. ‘ chodh de iss nagar ko, basa sakta hai to kahin aur jaa ke basa le apni duniya’

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dum le le ghadi bhar

ye chhaiyaan payega kahaan

wahaan kaun hai tera

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beet gaye din,pyaar ke palchhin

sapna bani wo raatein

bhool gaye wo,tu bhi bhula de

pyaar ki wo mulakatein  /*love these lines.so much intensity in the voice and these simple words

pyaar ki wo mulakatein

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sab door andhera

sab door andhera

musafir jayega kahaan /*sachin ji sings this word musafir in bongla style,noticed this time.

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koi bhi teri, raah na dekhe

nain bichhaaye na koi

dard se tere, koi na tadpa

aankh kisi ki na royi

aankh kisi ki na royi /*bilkul sach bola aapne. koi raah nahin dekhta.tum kitna bhi kuch kar lo! bass main hun thodi pagal!

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kahe kis ko tu mera/*doston waala ‘mera’ ya humsafar waala? per tumhaare pass to options hain bade saare,hai na!

kahe kisko tu mera

musafir jayega kahaan

kehte hain gyaani
duniya hai faani /* ye sabko to nahin samajh aata na?
paani pe likhi likhaayi
hai sab ki dekhi,hai sab ki jaani /* maine bhi jaani ab

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dum le le ghadi bhar

ye chhaiyaan payega kahaan

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AB MERA BHI MANN KARTA KI MAIN BASS KAHIN CHALI JAAUN… KAHIN DOOR,AKELI. DUNIYA EK SAMAY TUMHEN ACHA AUR DOOSRE SAMAY ZOR SE ZAMEEN PER PATAK DETI HAI. DUNIYE,RISHTE SAB KUCH!

Free helpline

In any public forum if I update a kind of angry message,depressing message or my emotions  and i will find tons of advices for it, that too for free!!!

I say ” i am very angry at some blah blah guy or i am gonna kill someone” and people will respond back ” aaaww/dont worry forgive him/why are you getting angry/forget about him/take it easy  and all that ” … Oh and worst reply of all is “get married” ..get married for this???

well i know all of that and i really dont want any advices but was just sharing. and i really need any advice i will go offline and talk to my close friend and get some advice right?? or i can just ask there “please me in this” or “what should i do next?? “.  o well when i do  ask “help” than all those folks just vanish !!!

why there is always a need of Mandatory free advice when not even asked! i like folks in US for that matter … its like “Unless you ask me,i am not gonna give you any advice”.

Sometimes I shared with my firang friends,about my personal problems and the response was a nod or hmmmm…. and if i asked any suggestion , they would reply like ” i would do this that way/if i were you i would chalk out this plan” … there is so much clarity between listening and suggesting. and then when you ASK, you take it seriously as you asked exclusively !!! so you respect their suggestions by actually listening to them…

Yea society and their bogus vichaar sometimes kill you and then people link it to their religion,go figure !

did I myself do this, yess a few times. but i learnt from it. I wish it takes lesser time for anyone.

perfect

It could have been a perfect love story. Even though there were no initial expectations, still things grew between them and they went along the flow. None of them stopped each other and time used to fly in each other’s arms. A lot happened in a small time,a lot could be understood with the silence and look in their eyes.Without words they could understand each other and were always on a roller coaster ride whenever they met. Phone calls never stopped,even friends used to tease whenever call would come. You could just see the glow of happiness till the time they were together. Some friends even wished for their togetherness forever.

Then un forseen situations took them apart, she flew to another state. Calling each other totally stopped, maybe the ego between the two or other things came in(who should call first/why no response even i called so many times and all that).so no phone calls and just some occational messages. That’s what had left between the two, though the care for each other never stopped. …. Time flew again..

And its their 5^th marriage anniverysry today ..both are happily married and enjoying the day by trekking in some dense forest with plans to camp on a mountain and enjoy the sunrise!!!

my friend just invited me to her anniversary party and within 5 mins i wrote this up!

chai pakode

thats what you feel like having on a rainy cloudy day.  The first rain and the cool breeze always makes you feel like doing something new!  here in banaglore it brings a little more cold in the Oct monsoon.You feel like staying in the bed for the whole day ! bass khao aur so jao or watch downloaded tv series !

So we decided to prepare evening snacks to enjoy the weather a little more. Chai,pakode and chutney it is then!!

Pakode : Cutting onions,cauliflower,potato. Making the a mix of gram flour with some curd(mom used to add lassi) and other ingredients. mix it and make pakode !

Imli ki chutney : soak tamarind in the water for an hour then boil it for 20 mins under low heat,add sugar/shakkar and again boil for 20 mins to make it little thick. fry cumin seeds in a some oil ,add chilli and then put it over the boiled tamarind mix. Add some black pepper. There were no dates else it could hv been a perfect chaat chutney!

Adrak waali Chai : sab jaante hain :D

 

 

 

 

surprises

can be good or bad… but still I love surprises like any other human being !

So I decided to throw a surprise for my sister on her birthday yesterday night ! atleast i can make people happy with the things they like na.

with some help,arranged a party ,played a good host , got a cutie cake and finally after the party at the midnight threw a surprise for her. not going to divulge the details as its more personal! i am proud of myself for the arrangements that I did. The party was perfect,danced like no ones watching on all the hindi tunes,DJ was great ..mast!

she cried uncontrollably and those tears were of happiness !!! and THATS WHAT I LOVE TO DO!!! WOW i so much loved that moment. I knew I made her day with this surprise and believe me every girl out there was clapping … wooooo . i think that surprise is every girl’s dream. (do not think too much okay)….

chocolate walnut cake here:

so what if i couldnt get what i dreamt ..atleast i can give someone else happiness which they could have only imagined!

I always dreamt of this surprise ALWAYS,ALWAYS and ALWAYS. Very happy for my sister.

The only person

who is with us the entire life is Ourself  ~ geet

to meet or not to

was the question i had in my mind from months… i am in the same city where i spent some beautiful time 2 years back with him.  same city,same lane,same land mark …everything..  I didnt want to meet him because i was angry with him,angry with her,angry with myself… i could have crushed his head in anger ,thats what i felt. so i restrained myself to see him , and one fine night i see him happily enjoying a movie where i was sitting just a row behind him!! call it WTF!!  almost all kind of emotions came,infact at one point i just ran out the theater to have some fresh air as i couldnt breath!

so again one fine day I was going through the old emails and thought let me see this guy. Let me see what he is upto and see how much i have the courage to hit him!!!  or maybe ask him ‘what lacked in me that she fulfilled’.

i met him after asking him over the email…we met in a resturant for lunch. Before that I had all things in my mind which I thought I would ask him,confront him and all that… the moment i saw him, I went blank and i was blank till i saw him off.

I went blank becuase i met him after 3 years and in the last one year everything changed between us… and he moved ahead his pretty dame ,i kept crawling and waiting for nothing!  thats that

anyways, so he had ordered something in starters and i had a piece of it. we started with ‘how are u and all around you’… and i kept fumbling with words, kept forgetting many things… he asked me about my health, i told him the story ,tears alomost came out but i held it back. didnt feel the worth to cry in front of him.

but the hardest thing hit me was when he mentioned about the theater part and kept laughing about it … ‘geet how was wake up sid hahahha ‘… i gave him the company on that but inside i was all angry. I couldnt eat anything after that so didnt have lunch.

and that was the time i thought, when he can make fun of my emotions like that than what is the guaranty that he will not do after listening to my questions and hearing all my anger and maybe cry… i felt so bad about myself…

here i was talking to him with all smiles and there he is creating a mockery of my emotions… yea go ahead … go ahead talk about it to your GF too. let her laugh at me or have pity on me…  that time my heart just said ‘ bosss you should not treat people like this, you might see a worst than this who knows! ‘

so all in all , it didnt do anything good to me. my questions are still safe with me like before and tears dont stop. the little confidence i had  is….

Met gunjan today.. its always a good time i have with her but crapped a lot today in front of her!

p.s: again please dont have any ‘aaawww’ or pitty on me !

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on a different note ‘ A Happy Gurpurab ‘ to everyone. It is our first Guru ,Sri Guru Nanak dev ji’s Birthday.

‘Babaji , Please give strength to everyone so they can fight their problems with courage and have the stamina to bear the sadness to come  out a winner. Please help everyone.’

Jo Bale so nihal, sat sri akal.

Concerns



Finally Chidambaram is holding talks with naxals and separatists . Hope it works out if govt is really bothered about         knowing the root cause and working on it to everyone’s best…

200 billion Rs scam in telecom..NDA and UPA bullshiting and lashing at each other…  just hope the money is recovered!

Who will follow up on the utilization of the around 1000 crores given to andra and Karnataka Govt?  how can a common man raise this question? I just hope every person hit by the floods gets fund to start up their life again!!

Global warming will have adverse effects in Africa and even UK ,is predicted to get flash floods ! watch ‘an inconvenient truth’  to know exactly problems/causes of global warming.believe me u know just 5% of it right now!

If in a family parents pamper their kids by allowing them to play with real guns, slap other children, how to kill someone then one day the same kids will hit back on their parents on any disagreement! That’s what is happening with today’s terrorism. It is just increasing steadily!!..Taliban hitting back on Pakistan, Afghanistan is almost like a dead country(if you read it’s history and see the 19^th century pics , Afghanistan was a BEAUTIFUL country.Do read it!! ) , rebels almost ruling in northern Africa, people there are just dying in hunger or becoming suicide bombers to help out their dying family, naxalism in India and they getting support from LTTE , Israel still killing Palestinians for gaza, Iran working on the nuclear weapons ….

Money, power, greed, selfishness , hatred are all interlinked ! I wonder why Gods couldn’t wait for now to come on this mother earth, I am sure at that time the situation was not so bad, today’s situation is worst !!!  remember somewhere in a Holy book its mentioned ‘when there is a peak of injustice, then a God arrive on the earth to provide justice’…  how much worst was it 2 billion years ago ???   I still have a little hope from Obama ,I don’t know why!

sometimes I do believe in 2012 predictions!

Yoga

I am supper happy today !! per kyon bhayeeee ??  hehehhe … thats because I could touch my head on to the ground while am sitting on the ground with legs straight .. thats a Yoga Asana and I did it !!!

here is the link if you wanna see it and i can even do this with my legs pointing straight together and my head head touching my knees fully !!

After the class my instructor was all excited and said ,”geet you lost in inches,look at your waist now i can see the difference… and today you touched your head to the knee and even the ground, Fabulous … i I like your dedication !!! ”   Those words are still ringing in my head :-) … other students came to me asking if i was on any special diet or something :D…

For who dont know, I have been doing Bharat Thakur’s Power Yoga from past 7 weeks. This yoga is like any other yoga asanas but they do these asanas very fast.

What have i achieved from it :

1. I lost 4 kgs of weight in the first 5 weeks !

2. My body swelling has reduced to minimal now,joint pains too!

3. Less stress and more calmness, considering from last few months my patience was ridiculously tested and is still going on!

4. I can hold my breath for a longer period. Ealier i could hold my breath in the water for 46 seconds and now its more than that !

5. My body is more flexible now.

6. While doing yoga each and every part of my body sweats, even my arms,calf area,butt,my back …it would look like i have just come out of a shower, i swear !!! so it feels really refreshing but  then i have to wash my hair almost daily as it totally gets wet by sweat  :-/

7. i can do around 55 Surya Namaskars in 25-35 minutes easily. Each surya namaskar asana compromises of 9 asanas. For more info please google for this word. Thats the strength I have got.

8. I can do 85-95 push ups every alternate day !

9. If in your school days you have got the punishment to become a Murga or you have gone to the fields to poop than you can easily do one of the asanas.. :D … believe me I could do so easily and most of the people had their butt hanging up in the air … batao,kyon nahin ki shararat bachpan main,murga bante to ye din na dekhne padte, hainji!

But I drink 2 coconut water daily and drink 3-4 litres of water  along with it.

you see that? I can really work hard on the things which are visible to me ,like if i am not well i can work on it. If my room is not clean I can work on it . If am putting on weight, I know what i need to do and I do it!!!  No one really has to push me for it believe me ..i just know this is good for me.

but the things which are not visible like thoughts, emotions and all that, i am bad at that. As i cant see them thus I dont get the inspiration from within to work upon them! i am not sure if you understood what i am saying…

Thus you can see I am more active in sports..teach me any game and i bet you,i can definitely give a run to the top levels for sure. I learnt racket ball very well in US and used to play with the guys ,even volleyball !!  sports is attached me to from childhood,will write about it sometime later.

I would really suggest everyone to take this up…Our ancient Science it is and we are privileged to get it,it can cure biggest of the diseases !!!

like it

what???  nothing different! i like washing clothes. Just love it!

i hate to use washing machine unless I have bedsheets or curtains to wash. Even in US I used to wash my clothes without using washing machine.

I have been washing my own clothes since my class 7.My mom got us this habit and I just followed :-). though my brother and sister couldnt. I would wash my clothes and then my sisters ,for a piece of chikki  or 10 chatpats :D…

Having spent my most of the time in a small town, I think that made me stick to these basic habits! and that very well has got me rooted to the ground ,how high I fly though!

Just finished washing some 15 clothes and I feel happy :).. I think I love playing in water !!!!!

and feels nice to sleep after some physical work !!!

BTW shankar eshaan loy has given good music in Lodon dreams, they stuck to the rock genre and even gave nice look to a punjabi song too and not to say Salman khan looks yummy  in that outfit ,shades with pagdi :P

lyrics by : parsoon joshi

singer :firoz khan